As you can see I have the attention span of a gnat.....

Well, actually, I am not really sure what the attention span of a gnat is, if anyone wants to Google that for me and post the answer in my comments, I will give you a mention.

As I was sitting here looking at my blog, I realized that "Focused Insanity" just wasn't fitting.....since most of my insanity is way way way out of focus. I wasn't being true to my current state of mental ill health. The first name I had for this blog, "Rissy's Rants, Raves and Recitations"....while it was strong on alliteration, really wasn't all that true either, since I mostly just rant, and besides that, I have pretty much dropped the pseudonym of Rissy. If any of you wonder about that, it came about when I first started chatting online about 10 years ago.

I started chatting in a place called ParentsPlace. Anyone here ever hear of it? It was a web based chat room that was supposed to be for parents to chat about.....well parenting. It turned out to be more of a meat market for bored housewives and equally bored daddies. There were more hookups in that place than in the No Tell Motel. But anyway..... I was looking for a name for myself....the first few times I went into the room, I used the name momof2 (because I had just only had my second child.......seems like a lifetime ago). Pretty boring, huh? Soon I decided I needed something a little more identifiable. So I decided to go with the name that my mom used to call me as a child, Rissy. There were some variations on it.....at Christmas I would become Ristletoe, at Halloween, Risenstein, you get the idea. I had met a lot of very good friends during that time, some of them still call me Rissy or Ris. Then, after a brief hiatus (more commonly known as my divorce), I came back with a more mature attitude. I had metamorphosed into Rhyssa. This was because of the royal rebel Rhys-Jones, I think her first name was Sophie, who just didn't stand for no crap. That is who I wanted to be. In fact, when I met my second significant other (he knocked me up but never officially married me) online, that was the name I was using. He never knew my real name was Iris until we met face to face the first time. Now I am back to owning my own name, Iris. I really like this name. Thanks Mom & Dad!

See how my attention wanders? And I wonder why my kids are all in Attention Deficit Hell.

So as for the name of the blog, I know it is a pain in the ass, you will have to change your bookmarks, your blogrolls (I am still really pissed at them), or whatever way you have of coming back here to read my crazy little disjointed thoughts. But, as I was told earlier, "Iris, you are such major pain in the ass, but I love you anyway"....everyone together now........awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.